September, 1992 that date is in my Bible labeled "Saved by God's Love". That is the year that I turned my hurt into an overwhelming love for my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. The day I was saved was a tough one for me. I was on my way to kill myself, to end the pain and hurt that had been a big part of my life for many years. I was convinced that my children ages were about 10, 5, and 4 would be better off if I was dead.
Who had convinced me of this? My husband and his mother, the two people that I thought loved me more than anything else. Well, there I was driving down the road looking for the tree or telephone pole to drive into when this voice inside my head said, "No you don't, I have big plans for you". God put His arms around me and as I sobbed hysterically, I prayed to Him and accepted His Son as my Savior - literally and figuratively.
I was so relieved and felt so loved it was incredible. I had such a peace over me - one I never thought I would ever have. Since that day, I have worked very hard to walk down God's path and not take my human detours. A task that is very hard to do but with God's help I have managed to remain faithful to Him. My prayer is that He will send people to me that need to hear about Him, and I can guide them in a "been there, done that" attitude.
God has been faithful and sent many a person who has been abused by spouse and/or boyfriend into my path. I have been able to comfort and share my experience with the individuals. What a blessing my life has been since that GLORIOUS day! I am so thankful that God loved ME so much that He took me into His arms and loved me! And stopped me from making a huge mistake that would have been permanent.
My children would not be better off without me and even though we have struggles, we are blessed every day. I rejoice in the adventure I have decided to take and willingly turn to my Lord for guidance and wisdom. He is forever faithful. I hope this will help somebody, if it just touches one life, I have been blessed. God loves you and is faithful to you.